We come into this world full of love and looking for nurturing. We receive the environment that we are born into. During our infantile years we learn to accept our surroundings as the norm. The more we mature towards the adolescent stage we become our environment. Some are special enough to distinguish the two experiences and classify as bad or good on their own based on their soul. The majority are taught to accept the current state as normal. 

Children are more resilient than adults. Children are fearless. Children will accept a task and sprint towards achieving success. They will fall brush off and continue on. They will accept that they have to strap a bomb to their chest and are convinced it is the right thing to do for their innocent senses have accepted the environment as being. They see nothing wrong with what they are taught for they know nothing else. 

I am sure there are other situations where a child is brave and they will do anything to protect loved ones. Anything means giving their own life and they truly believe it is honorable and they are protecting because of it. 

We are love from the beginning. I have an extreme example of how innocence can be manipulated and in the eyes of the innocent there is no wrong. They make a decision and act based on the current state. They do not negotiate or reason. They adhere to the command not out of fear but out of loyalty and love. 

We do not protect our children enough. Instead of thinking positive and encouraging at a maximum level we teach them how to be insecure, fearful. We teach our children the bad habits that we learned that aided to our current state of suffering. 

We should be teaching our children Love. After they learn UNCONDITIONAL Love then everything else falls into place because there will be an absence of fear. 

Teach Love and practice it everyday. Truly believe that Love heals. 

I’m tired. I am exhausted. I am numb. As I reflect on my life I contemplate my next move. We are living in an unpredictable age. A time where life is not cherished like before. Children become independent thinkers and innocence is lost before puberty. Parents do not value the lives of their children. The family structure has dissipated into an old way of thinking. Gone are the days of love and compassion. We are in an age of the rebirth of anarchy. 

This is overwhelming. My head is full of hysteria. My heart is a wrench. The pressure is heavy. Hope is a strange word. Love is a failing memory. 

As I contemplate my mortality I flash the most beautiful memories of my children. The happy times. The laughing and crying. I lament the loss of time. My grandchildrens unconditional love for their papa. If I could only hold on to their memory before it slips away into the reality that life has consumed the innocence of my children. 

My ego has taken me over angry that I am so jealous of life. Life has taken hold of my children and their sight is no longer filtered through me. I am low an afterthought. I am left with memories. I am left with residue. I am but a left over whithering away. 

Go away my pain. Flee from my heart. Make me light. I want to float in love again. 

Our lives are so delicate. Yet we are so powerful. We have the capacity to achieve anything we think. Faith is the key. 

We blame others when we fail in achieving what we want. We want the approval and the validation from external instead of being happy with our little improvements towards our goals. We are so judgmental when it comes to our lives. The criticisms of others are baseless yet we take them to heart as if the person criticizing was a judge and jury. 

Story. A girls color guard team had been preparing for competition upcoming. They were excited and felt they were really doing well. Confidence in their routine was high. Their coach got them together to speak to them the final week leading up. In the meeting he told the team that it will be a long trip for the competition, don’t get your hopes up because there is. I way we will place anyway. We are going for fun. But in all reality the competition is a lost cause. 

What??!!! Is this what we tell our children these days? I hope that is not what is being told to are young men in battle, ” oh by the way we are going against the enemy but we are all going to die or be caught. There is no way we will survive they are superior. Nice knowing you thank you very much goodbye! 

We can achieve anything we think. Faith

The girls lost and in last place because they were very down and sad that the coach did not have confidence in them and felt that they wasted their time. 

We are failures in our own mind. We are successful when we change our negative mindset to that of a positive one, not just changing the thoughts but the HABIT of feeling, hoping, and expecting the worse in the outcome. 

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