depression

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We come into this world full of love and looking for nurturing. We receive the environment that we are born into. During our infantile years we learn to accept our surroundings as the norm. The more we mature towards the adolescent stage we become our environment. Some are special enough to distinguish the two experiences and classify as bad or good on their own based on their soul. The majority are taught to accept the current state as normal. 

Children are more resilient than adults. Children are fearless. Children will accept a task and sprint towards achieving success. They will fall brush off and continue on. They will accept that they have to strap a bomb to their chest and are convinced it is the right thing to do for their innocent senses have accepted the environment as being. They see nothing wrong with what they are taught for they know nothing else. 

I am sure there are other situations where a child is brave and they will do anything to protect loved ones. Anything means giving their own life and they truly believe it is honorable and they are protecting because of it. 

We are love from the beginning. I have an extreme example of how innocence can be manipulated and in the eyes of the innocent there is no wrong. They make a decision and act based on the current state. They do not negotiate or reason. They adhere to the command not out of fear but out of loyalty and love. 

We do not protect our children enough. Instead of thinking positive and encouraging at a maximum level we teach them how to be insecure, fearful. We teach our children the bad habits that we learned that aided to our current state of suffering. 

We should be teaching our children Love. After they learn UNCONDITIONAL Love then everything else falls into place because there will be an absence of fear. 

Teach Love and practice it everyday. Truly believe that Love heals. 

I hope all of you are doing well that are reading this post. I have not posted here since last October. I have been active on other social media sites like, Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, Flickr, You Tube and a couple of others. I have been mainly making picture/quote posting and videos. I enjoy writing most of all. I chose for the time being to make quick posts and videos. I felt at the time that expressing myself through live videos was free flowing and spontaneous.

I realized through the process of conquering my little anxiety, actually a fear of recording myself, was a process I needed to go through. I am very comfortable now recording myself. As I was going through that process I also realized another thing…. My writing was just as if not equally or more important. At times through this process I would look at my writing as an alternate mode of expressing my thoughts and quickly dismissed it as taking too much thought process and I could not make enough time for it. I started to build up a fear of writing like I did my recording videos. I started to believe that my writing was not good enough because of my perception that I did not have enough viewers or subscribers to read my website.

I was believing a false thought that because I see the amount of followers on the other social media sites so I figured it justified my perception that writing in the website was a waste of time and I was ready to delete the website.

Here is the truth. I believed that I needed to write better, and did not have time to improve. The reason to write better was all vain, I wanted more followers. It started to turn into me wanting to be popular and not about helping “one” person if that is all I accomplished with these efforts. That one person didn’t seem as important as me being recognized by the masses. That is a bullshit belief. Not that I was wholeheartedly believing that, but it did cross my mind a little bit.

Here I am. I love my writing. I don’t really give a rats ass about impressing anyone, but I do give a shit about impressing on you my thoughts and heartfelt writing expressing how I feel happiness needs to be a part of our lives in order to flourish in this lifetime. We need it more if not as equally as oxygen to breathe.

I have set up several ways to post and express myself here. I will be posting directly from my phone, and or sending picture quotes that I post on my social media sites. I will be also posting the videos. I hope all of you reading this will share my information to your friends and loved ones. I actually do not have an agenda to fulfill some kind of self glorification or otherwise…. I truly just want to share my soul.

Thank You if you are a regular, I appreciate you if you are a first time reader. I have links to a couple of my social media sites that you can follow and see all my other activities all directly related to happiness and not any other thing. I will not be spamming you. The only thing I offer is myself. My Love.

Why Am I Unhappy?

Why Am I Unhappy? I am unhappy for the excuses I make to justify feeling unhappy. I wake up every morning thinking of all the things that went wrong yesterday and what is bound to happen today. I think of all the people that are in my way and irritate the crap out of me. I think of the person next to me that does not love me anymore. I am unhappy because I feel sorry for myself and the situation I wake up to every day.
There are so many more countless justifications that I remind myself to keep me to be unhappy everyday all day long. At some point it will drive me crazy …. That is what is called a nervous breakdown.

How did we get this way?

Conditioning from a very young age? Life experience, trauma and or tragedy. There are so many situations that we allow to be responsible for our present day life. We become lazy and blame the easiest available thing or person and loved one. Instead of taking stock and owning the decision we made to be unhappy. You can list a page full of excuses to be unhappy and I can sing the praises of the reasons to be happy.

This is a journey we are on.

We are travelers experiencing different chapters in this wonderful trip we are on. We are writing a story for ourselves. Believe it or not we are in full control of the content. We can either write the story fully in control or we can allow others to have control of our story letting them place us as actors in theirs.
It is really simple to write your own happiness story. That is the only story we should focus on. The SIMPLICITY of Happiness story. We are the authors. We write it and no one else should be responsible for the content except ourselves. We struggle because of fear. We are afraid to be brave and adventurous. Find the hard roads to take. The hard roads are our passions and loves. The things that give us purpose. The situations that bring us joy and happiness. We are afraid to try those things that are perceived as too far reaching.
I have wanted to be a public speaker since I was very young. At one point I wanted to be a priest or a pastor because I thought that was an honorable way of helping people and I can still be standing in front of the masses to encourage and empower. I did that and it was not fulfilling. I did not feel myself. I was more stressed out. I am now a mentor of happiness. I am a Happiness Coach. I am whatever you want to call someone that wants to teach people the SIMPLICITY of Happiness to anyone and everyone.

I have my dream.

I have the reality that I want to transfer from a dream reality to a physical reality. I want to stand in front of hundreds of people at once speaking to their hearts. I thought that this feat was only through a physical sense. How naive I am. I can reach millions by speaking on the internet through different social media platforms. I still offer myself face to face. I want to be available to everyone.
I thought my dream was unattainable. I was not happy because I thought I was not good enough. I convinced myself it was impossible. So I started to believe this for years. One day I realized I can convince myself to believe the opposite. I was a very late bloomer when it came to my artistic ability. I was called an artist for the first time in my life when I was 43 years old. It was amazing. I believed I was an artist. I acted as an artist. Then I was in a gallery and I was thought of as an artist from that day forward. I created my own reality.
You can create your own happiness the same way. Believe, and then just be. Eventually your physical world will catch up to your dreams. Happiness will consume you because you will believe that is what you feel every day. Try it. If you want to know my step by step easy to follow program subscribe to my blog and I will send you the program for free.

I just want to help you be happy.

Let go of the fear and stop letting your life deteriorate. No one person or thing is worth your life if they don’t value you the way you value them.