Patience

Happiness is Overrated. That is what I have been told recently. I have been told that what I have just started is a waste of time. That it is corny and it is out of my character. I have been told that the YouTube videos I have recorded are creepy and no one will watch. All of that might be true in their perspective, but from my perspective I don’t give a flying you know what they think. I know that I am doing something that will connect with one or two people that are too shy to ask for help. They internalize life in a very different way that is not healthy and they are trapped.

I am not a professional and I never claimed to be. I never claimed to have the answers to your problems. All I have is my heart and soul to express through the mediums I choose. There are so many people to reach that need to be loved. I have taken it upon myself to make myself available to whoever NEEDS to listen. If all I am is a stepping stone to opening up their eyes to something much more helpful then I have done my work. If I can encourage some of you that read this to help others as well then I will be proud to have sacrificed my time and money for this cause.

Depression and sadness is so common among us. We are all hurting souls. We all need a voice in our ear of encouragement. If I am beating a dead horse to all of you about this having a choice to be happy then let it be so. Sometimes I doubt myself and my efforts, the little voices get in my head and they are lies. I start to believe that I am not good enough. I have struggled in the past with severe insecurity which caused me to look for validation through other ways in my life. Ways that were not so healthy for my soul and the people that I love.

We all suffer when a loved one is afflicted with a disease or depression. We all are connected to one another on so many levels. We have to be aware of who we hurt when we are selfish and only think of ourselves.If you are reading this and I have hurt you in some way….I know what I did, I am truly sorry for my selfishness. All I can tell you is I am getting better and working on me everyday. I am loving everyone that I am capable of loving, learning how to release all hurt, guilt and regret to move forward. In order to be there for other people we have to let go of the self deprecation. We have to cleanse our souls on a daily basis. We have to stop blaming others for our hurts and failures. We have to stop thinking of our challenges as failures and count on the lesson that we learned to be there for the next challenge in life.

I love to ramble when I write. I love to get it all out. I love to not plan my thoughts. I am learning. I am learning to transition this way of thinking to my videos. I am so in love with all of my friends, relatives, children, grandchildren that I owe them my life for always being there. I am still alive today because I have not given up on them. I have not made the decision to leave this hurting world. I will be here for all of you because I love you. It is easier to be miserable, give up, make excuses, run away, walk out, turn your back, cry in shame, than to stand firm in your convictions, accept yourself for who you are, make a bold brave step forward and love unconditionally. We all deserve that level of love and we all deserve to experience giving that love.

Where do we go from here? Forward. Love!

Is there any way we can be happy without effort. One day wake up and it is a feeling that we cannot run away from? Is there anyway where our learned trait and habits are that of a positive nature? Could we have success in transforming our mindset to that of loving all the time and not having a reason for it, with no effort and just because? What I know now in my present perceived reality is that there is little effort spent in being miserable. It is much easier to blame everyone else and including work, government, school, the milkman, the in-laws, and the person that cut you off this morning….. It is so easy and comforting to know we do not have to take accountability for our unhappiness. In the first place most of the time we have created our own damage to our psyche. We have conditioned ourselves to believe the perceptions we have allowed ourselves to listen to. There is a group of people that have visited Los Angeles this month from the Special Olympics. They did not choose their current state of being. Their being is perceived by the rest of the world as challenging and out of the normal in society, yet they are an amazing group of people performing amazing feats that a “normal” person cannot even begin to accomplish. They are truly special. They have attacked that exterior perception of themselves and internalized their view of themselves as amazing and powerful! If you watch any news reports about their games and see their faces, they are always happy. Are they challenged? Yes of course they are, but not in the way you think. They are challenged because of the general view of their state of being. They do know the difference between unhappiness and happiness. They do have a choice and know that either is available.

Effortless happiness is only achieved through quiet time or what is called meditation, or at least some inter thinking of ones being. Getting in touch with your essence so important if you are to find that internal happiness that is called love. We all have it inside us. It is our soul, essence, being, spirit, Conscious…..Yes conscious….. If we start to understand what we are about and how we are made we can stop suffering. WE will always experience. The perceptions of the experience will change. We can sort out the emotions and feelings and categorize them accordingly. We can wash our different negative states of mind with love and transform them into amazing experiences that strengthen us and shape who we can potentially be. It is hard work but worth the effort. It is harder to work towards that connection to our essence than to accept the vulgarity of pain and discomfort as “normal”.

I always tell people that they have a choice. To be happy or not. I always get the reply that I make it sound so easy. Where in that statement did I say it was easy? I said one or the other is our choice. The easy choice and most comfortable is unhappiness. There is no effort involved. No work. Just sit back accept and feel what the majority of the world is believing. Hard work is being uncomfortable, feeling the pain, conditioning you to something that is not”normal”. Inside us we have the drive that is our love for ourselves; a sense of the effort is good and just. We have a fire inside us that connects to the feeling of happiness and joy, when we experience it we do not feel our physical pains, we heal quicker, think logically, love everyone and it is reciprocated. We share our true inner selves with the world around us and it feels awesome!

Happy or Unhappy? Give it a try. I bet I am right. If I am not then don’t read this blog. I will still love you anyway.

You demonstrate success or failure according to your habitual trend of thought. In you which is stronger? – Success thoughts or failure thoughts? If your mind is ordinarily in a negative state, an occasional positive thought is not sufficient to attract success. But if you think rightly, you will find your goal even though you seemed enveloped in darkness.

You alone are responsible for yourself. No one else may answer for your deeds when the final reckoning comes. Your work in the world – in the sphere where you and your own past activity, has placed you – can be performed only by one person – yourself. And your work can be called a success only when in some way it serves your fellow man.

Don’t mentally review any problem constantly. Let it rest at times and it may work itself out; but see that you do not rest so long that your discrimination is lost. Rather use these rest periods to go deep within the calm region of your own inner self. Attuned with your soul, you will be able to think correctly regarding everything you do; and if your thoughts and actions have gone astray they can be re-aligned. This power of divine attunement can be achieved by practice and effort.

I want to get through to you my loved ones but you do not listen. Why do I take it so personal because I want you to feel the same joy I feel daily? I take it so hard when I see you sad and negative. Sometimes it affects me when I constantly send messages and hints that life is beautiful. I even have proof in my life and you still ignore the message. I am here for you and I love you. I always encourage you to smile and FEEL happiness yet you continue to frown and be down. What will it take for you to understand that life does not have to be such a struggle? It is a beautiful ride full of challenges and opportunities to improve and create joy for yourself. We all have the same fight on this journey. We all have the same fate. With that alone should be reason enough to take a look at our days as special gifts that we are here one more time to give it another shot. Why not just be happy today if you are not waking up tomorrow. And if you last the week then you had a joyous week. How great can that be? IS another person keeping you from that happiness? Then step away or distance yourself from that person. If you cannot distance yourself from them then know that it is not your fault that they are using you as a target to unload their shit on you. Most people do not even realize they are hurting their loved ones until they are better. Then it is too late. But never too late to apologize and make things better. To move on. To love. To smile. To give yourself the gift of your new life you can create. Thank God he gave us this gift of the real reality most do not even know about. The reality that exists in our mind. He created us in his image. He created the universe with a thought. We have that power. He created the universe with his love. WE have that capacity to love. Use it. Love one person unconditionally. They will forward that love. Then another. Then another. It is like Multi-Marketing Love. Everyone shares the more it is passed on. Quit wasting time my loved ones. Be happy.