Transformation

I am overwhelmed right now with the thought of how to structure my posts and words that I need to use to get more attention from you the reader. I am losing sight of what was the purpose for my blog in the first place. I do research and try to have a relevant post so anyone can understand and it flows. In the end it all doesn’t matter as long as I connect with you. If I am myself, eventually someone will view my writing as relevant and will connect with my thoughts and views. I do not really care whether the masses agree with me. I am speaking and writing on something that will help people. What I write will help the majority. Those who disagree can find someone else they can agree with. I want everyone to find a voice they can relate to because the important thing here is that we find something or someone to connect with that will help us change our mindset into a positive one.

I write from my heart, experiences and what I observe through my readings and conversations with people. I give the wisdom of my soul an outlet to teach people to love and learn how to be happy and have a life purpose. If what little I know is helpful I will be living an abundant fulfilled life. I have been finding out that the search engines are recording record numbers with the phrase “how to be happy”. Can you imagine?! People actually want to be happy. I thought this world was going to hell and a handbasket. I was losing all hope for humanity and was just waiting to die so I can either move on from this body or transition to nothingness. We do not have a choice in the matter. We are certainly going to die. Our waking conscious will stop. We will be out like a broken porchlight. The other side of that has always been a mystery. It isn’t like someone took a camera with them to prove the existence of another dimension that our energy transfers to and our conscious is aware.

Awareness of this reality we are living in and our perception of it is crucial in our lives. Do we just exist and live aimlessly or do we try and find a purpose for ourselves. If there is nothingness waiting for us what would we have to gain for finding purpose? Is it going to get us something in return? If we think that nothingness is waiting for us then there are no morals to worry about nor any fear or guilt. If we know there is nothing then what are we afraid of…? We should be happy. We should live our lives to experience whatever it is we want to and create for ourselves a wonderful experience. It would be selfish of us to disrespect the person next to us and ruin their experience in life if all we have is a one time around and then it is done. It would be horrible of us to create a toxic environment for our fellow human being if there is nothingness after we are finished and they were trying to make the best experience and it was tainted by your negative outlook and perception.

Our choices are clear. If there is nothingness at the end of our experience here then to decide to live a happy and positive life is the best thing to do because all we have is one go around. Experience life with respecting everyone around you feeling good about yourself and understanding that our mortality serves as a reminder that we have to decide correctly once. If we wake up the next day we have to understand we have another chance to be well. To experience amazing.

I truly believe we have been created and there is something and we have a life purpose. I feel connection to this world and everyone in it. I know that there is a something at the end of this. What I have seen and learned has given me a belief in something great.

I write to help you realize that happiness is the best choice to figure out your problems and focus on your life purpose. If you are happy you have a clear mind to help you focus on the answer. I write because I feel in my essence that we have a purposeful life and we need to figure it out, experience joy will open up the doors by attracting people that want to be around you and want to experience life the way you are. I write because my purpose is to help people, I am passionate about it. I am not a perfect person. I do not carry degrees to give me the authority, license nor do I need them in order to love and share to people what I am about. I am me and I love you.

I speak and share from the heart unconditionally. If you want to join me message me. Subscribe to my blog and get updates. Join our forum. Share this blog to everyone you know through your social accounts. We have to start healing from or negative mindset and stop wasting time and FIND your LIFE Purpose!

Consistency. Why do we procrastinate? I for one do it because I get side tracked. Is it a conspiracy from SATAN? No… Maybe… But for sure we allow the media and all the different things around us taking us away from what we love to keep our focus on. For instance….. We watch the news right now and what are we seeing? Violence, terrorism, war and so forth. We turn off the TV or internet and we keep thinking of that. We worry. We analyze. We are distracted and then we become complacent. We do not continue. WE become inconsistent. There are so many things that keep us from what our focus is. The main thing is our fears. I have spoken about fears.

Fear is the deciding factor in our daily lives. Either we are too afraid to try or we are too afraid to say no or yes. We are too afraid to make a decision to be happy. We are too afraid we might hurt someone to give ourselves a chance. We are too afraid to stand up for ourselves. We are too afraid to have faith. Faith is a very loaded concept.

Faith is a mindset. We believe something that is not yet there and yet we know with all of our strength and courage that it is there, it will be there and there was never a doubt. Faith should be all consuming. Faith is courageous. Faith is a sign of strength. Faith takes balls. Faith is challenging.

Challenges. Wow. One leads to another. Fear, is overcome by faith, faith takes courage, and challenges are a joke when we apply the aforementioned. What a concept. The question is… What are we having Faith in? God, Some form of God, Ourselves, Ourselves as God (like).

We all have our beliefs. I have mine. All I can opinionate is that we all should have faith in the mindset that whatever it is that created and sustains us as a species in the vast universe, We are cut from the same cloth. As a parent gives life to their child, the child grows up to become just like the parent. We are created from a piece of what created us. If the universe is so powerful, hence we are likewise in that respect. There are mysterious things that happen that we only see through a telescope, but we have our universe inside of us in the micro. We are capable of producing the same energy that the macro universe creates. It has been proven that we are very powerful and yet we are too busy worrying about what is less important. We are distracted from our own truth.

If we only knew as a collective species the amount of pressure we could put on all evil we would have a very happy place to coexist. Instead we live in fear, and that is the distraction that keeps us unhappy. Unhappiness breads a chain of negativity. One dominoes another. It all begins with one soul. Since we are all connected all it takes is one bad disease to infect the rest. The opposite holds just as true. One positive smile is infectious. One good deed is rewarded with a pay it forward mindset. Eventually it becomes contagious. But if we allow fear to cloud our perception then any actions taken will be worthless. We can smile, be happy and blow smoke up our ass believing that we can pretend. But if we do not feel it and believe it truly we will always fail. And failure is not an option if you want to break this negative cycle.

Love. Believe it or not, is the answer. What a cliché. But it is the truth. LOVE! Is what holds us together. If there wasn’t a small amount of love in this world left it would be gone. After you read this (all 3 of you) go love someone. Someone you wouldn’t expect to express it too. Make it meaningful and sincere. A small gesture is huge in someones perception of you not loving them. If you do not understand everything I have written then you are not ready. Your loss. I still Love you.

At the core of our life is our intent on finding a purpose and where do we fit in. Where do we fit in this world and our environment? We spend a lifetime searching for this very specific answer. Sadly there are others that just exist. To a majority of people that is just fine. That mindset to me is such an empty and lonely state of being. For those of us that think we are all here for a purpose and searching and seeking out this purpose it is a monumental undertaking if you are surrounded by idiots. Idiots is a harsh word. But let me re-phrase…..Sad People.

Honestly all kidding aside this world is full of people that are just existing. For many years since I was a child I thought my life was a happy life, an upbringing with loving and nurturing people. I thought that no one was out to hurt me. As I grew older that fantasy was met with reality when the memories started to trickle in. I would come across experiences as an older child, or triggers that would help me recall very negative and challenging experiences. The reason I did not realize they were bad during the experience is because as a child we are innocent and naïve and think our current experience is a norm. We do not have anything else as a base, our experience is limited. We have only new experiences with no judgement. As we mature through different stages we began to learn right from wrong. Then our past takes on a new life. We start to come across new experiences not so comfortable and then relate those new experiences with old, and it will trigger the past experience as it is happening in real time.

Experiences from childhood and forward shape our character. Our initial environmental experience will pre-determine our future decisions. WE will carry our fears predicated upon those past experiences. We will wonder why we have phobias, and resistance when we are challenged. We will create a life for ourselves based on those fears. We will create a safe place through our lives avoiding similar feeling experiences. Any emotion or feeling that is even remotely similar and attached to a current experience is a warning sign to us to stay away.

Life is full of challenges and we have to be strong in the face of all the adversity that we face in order to grow. If we are generally happy these adverse situations will be easier to face. If we listen to our voices telling us that the past negative experiences will be repeated if we embark on new experiences that have a risk associated to it, we will always find a safe place to reside and never move forward challenging ourselves to grow by overcoming.

Fear is not a reality. There is no justification for it. (False Evidence Appearing Real)The cure is not giving a fuck about your past and living life with faith that God will provide the safe haven and promise to you that you are a powerful being full of love. Love yourself and be fearless. Try anything and everything. THAT is how you will find your PURPOSE.

Be Good. I Love You.

Happiness is Overrated. That is what I have been told recently. I have been told that what I have just started is a waste of time. That it is corny and it is out of my character. I have been told that the YouTube videos I have recorded are creepy and no one will watch. All of that might be true in their perspective, but from my perspective I don’t give a flying you know what they think. I know that I am doing something that will connect with one or two people that are too shy to ask for help. They internalize life in a very different way that is not healthy and they are trapped.

I am not a professional and I never claimed to be. I never claimed to have the answers to your problems. All I have is my heart and soul to express through the mediums I choose. There are so many people to reach that need to be loved. I have taken it upon myself to make myself available to whoever NEEDS to listen. If all I am is a stepping stone to opening up their eyes to something much more helpful then I have done my work. If I can encourage some of you that read this to help others as well then I will be proud to have sacrificed my time and money for this cause.

Depression and sadness is so common among us. We are all hurting souls. We all need a voice in our ear of encouragement. If I am beating a dead horse to all of you about this having a choice to be happy then let it be so. Sometimes I doubt myself and my efforts, the little voices get in my head and they are lies. I start to believe that I am not good enough. I have struggled in the past with severe insecurity which caused me to look for validation through other ways in my life. Ways that were not so healthy for my soul and the people that I love.

We all suffer when a loved one is afflicted with a disease or depression. We all are connected to one another on so many levels. We have to be aware of who we hurt when we are selfish and only think of ourselves.If you are reading this and I have hurt you in some way….I know what I did, I am truly sorry for my selfishness. All I can tell you is I am getting better and working on me everyday. I am loving everyone that I am capable of loving, learning how to release all hurt, guilt and regret to move forward. In order to be there for other people we have to let go of the self deprecation. We have to cleanse our souls on a daily basis. We have to stop blaming others for our hurts and failures. We have to stop thinking of our challenges as failures and count on the lesson that we learned to be there for the next challenge in life.

I love to ramble when I write. I love to get it all out. I love to not plan my thoughts. I am learning. I am learning to transition this way of thinking to my videos. I am so in love with all of my friends, relatives, children, grandchildren that I owe them my life for always being there. I am still alive today because I have not given up on them. I have not made the decision to leave this hurting world. I will be here for all of you because I love you. It is easier to be miserable, give up, make excuses, run away, walk out, turn your back, cry in shame, than to stand firm in your convictions, accept yourself for who you are, make a bold brave step forward and love unconditionally. We all deserve that level of love and we all deserve to experience giving that love.

Where do we go from here? Forward. Love!