Sometimes we find ourselves borderline with death and life. Our minds are always exploring the avenue of depression and misery. We have voices from the past trying to convince us that lies are the truth. That the truth is relevant as a choice. We argue with those thoughts and days weeks months go by and we just get by. We waste time worrying about all the aspects of our sadness that we lose precious time enjoying our loved ones around us.
For those that are alone you waste time feeling sorry and do not ever move on to create a new life for yourself. Free of attachments. Travel and move anywhere to meet new people. There are so many situations we can talk about where there could be a good excuse to be miserable. If we are alive then there is hope to create something special.
I recently put myself in a situation where it is out of my comfort zone. It is scary for anyone that does not have the courage to face something new and is not able to create with confidence. It takes courage for someone to change in stride. I am not saying that we should stop what we are doing and do what we love and are passionate about. That would be absurd. We should never want to re-think our lives to be happier if we are already comfortable. Never!!! We need security. We need low risk situations where we can just settle and be safe. Happiness is relevant isn’t it? It isn’t really happiness it is craziness to want to laugh all the time going to and from work. Laugh when you collect that check from something that you enjoy doing while everyone is working overtime and barely making ends meet.
Do not do that. Do not enjoy life. I beg you. Settle for the people over you that do not appreciate how amazing you are. Do not get out of your comfort zone and make yourself uncomfortable sacrificing that comfort for the payoff of making a living at something you love to do. Do not put the hard work in for a passion where you work for 10-12 hours a day in something that is amazing and fulfilling to you. NO! That would be a bad idea. That is so CRAZY that you cannot even think of it you selfish person you.
You are a hypocrite! Can’t we all just get a long at work and be happy? I made some mistakes in my career and my life where I let my emotions get the best of me, I let my weaknesses get the best of me, I let my temper get the best of me, I let my principles get me in trouble and I did not stick with my principles at times. I got away from going to a place where other people rejoice in life and pray together earnestly and honestly in a non-judgmental way. Don’t look at me with those eyes like you are innocent you hypocrite! I love you! I will always love you even though you think of nothing but hate towards me. I will always stretch out my hands in hopes that you will accept my gift of love and kindness, friendship and goodwill. Instead look at me with those righteous eyes. How Dare You?! I answer in love. I love you. Period.
This is a rant. This is how the mind works when you are in the process of meditating. This is how we can go back and forth from emotion to thought and never get anywhere. We have to not listen to the lies. We have to block out the voices. The voices can be so damaging. The voices of the past and our fears all balled up into one. Relax. Love and be happy.