Why Am I Unhappy?

Why Am I Unhappy? I am unhappy for the excuses I make to justify feeling unhappy. I wake up every morning thinking of all the things that went wrong yesterday and what is bound to happen today. I think of all the people that are in my way and irritate the crap out of me. I think of the person next to me that does not love me anymore. I am unhappy because I feel sorry for myself and the situation I wake up to every day.
There are so many more countless justifications that I remind myself to keep me to be unhappy everyday all day long. At some point it will drive me crazy …. That is what is called a nervous breakdown.

How did we get this way?

Conditioning from a very young age? Life experience, trauma and or tragedy. There are so many situations that we allow to be responsible for our present day life. We become lazy and blame the easiest available thing or person and loved one. Instead of taking stock and owning the decision we made to be unhappy. You can list a page full of excuses to be unhappy and I can sing the praises of the reasons to be happy.

This is a journey we are on.

We are travelers experiencing different chapters in this wonderful trip we are on. We are writing a story for ourselves. Believe it or not we are in full control of the content. We can either write the story fully in control or we can allow others to have control of our story letting them place us as actors in theirs.
It is really simple to write your own happiness story. That is the only story we should focus on. The SIMPLICITY of Happiness story. We are the authors. We write it and no one else should be responsible for the content except ourselves. We struggle because of fear. We are afraid to be brave and adventurous. Find the hard roads to take. The hard roads are our passions and loves. The things that give us purpose. The situations that bring us joy and happiness. We are afraid to try those things that are perceived as too far reaching.
I have wanted to be a public speaker since I was very young. At one point I wanted to be a priest or a pastor because I thought that was an honorable way of helping people and I can still be standing in front of the masses to encourage and empower. I did that and it was not fulfilling. I did not feel myself. I was more stressed out. I am now a mentor of happiness. I am a Happiness Coach. I am whatever you want to call someone that wants to teach people the SIMPLICITY of Happiness to anyone and everyone.

I have my dream.

I have the reality that I want to transfer from a dream reality to a physical reality. I want to stand in front of hundreds of people at once speaking to their hearts. I thought that this feat was only through a physical sense. How naive I am. I can reach millions by speaking on the internet through different social media platforms. I still offer myself face to face. I want to be available to everyone.
I thought my dream was unattainable. I was not happy because I thought I was not good enough. I convinced myself it was impossible. So I started to believe this for years. One day I realized I can convince myself to believe the opposite. I was a very late bloomer when it came to my artistic ability. I was called an artist for the first time in my life when I was 43 years old. It was amazing. I believed I was an artist. I acted as an artist. Then I was in a gallery and I was thought of as an artist from that day forward. I created my own reality.
You can create your own happiness the same way. Believe, and then just be. Eventually your physical world will catch up to your dreams. Happiness will consume you because you will believe that is what you feel every day. Try it. If you want to know my step by step easy to follow program subscribe to my blog and I will send you the program for free.

I just want to help you be happy.

Let go of the fear and stop letting your life deteriorate. No one person or thing is worth your life if they don’t value you the way you value them.

My sister is dying. All of the teaching I do for people doesn’t mean shit at this moment. All the bullshit I teach is a foreign language to me. For this moment I want to be selfish and cry. Cry for the pain I will feel. Weeep for the anguish my nieces and nephews will feel after they lose their mother. 

My love for her is unconditional. I love all of my family the same. This woman has overcomed so much in her life. She is a wonderful soul. She is my angel. I reflect in the love she has for me. The unbounded   Endless love I feel from her I know she will always be with me . I can’t fathom being without her alive in my life. She is ready. She wants to rest and be with our loved ones that have left before her. 

I have lost so many people in my life some I have lost and they are still alive. My fear of my own mortality looms everyday and drives my passion for helping people not waste their days contemplating their own fears preventing them from happiness. 

I am calm now. I am thankful. I will spend whatever time there is with her. I will support everyone. I will love unconditionally. I will love eternally. I will exhume love from The tip of my toes to the top of my highest hair follicle from my head. The love I have has to be pure putting aside all the worldly disgust I have for the imperfections I might see in others character only because they remind me how much of a piece of shit I am myself. I will not be a judgemental hypocrite. 

Life is now. Our time to live is now. We have this moment in time to love one another because tomorrow might not come. 

I Love You so much my beautiful amazing big sister! I am on my way. 

Why Am I Lonely Being Happy? I am dying inside right now. The people I love the most are sad and I fight to be happy every day. I surge in my high energy levels counting the moments for the next awesome encounter with helping someone. But on the flipside I carry the burdens in my heart of the sadness my loved ones feel. I wake every morning committing to be an example to them showing them that it is done by making a choice. I end the day hoping I was enough. I wake the next morn with a do over.

The pain thresh hold is usually higher for me than the normal person. I forgive and give love. I watch the people I love tell me how much they love me, and how everything is wrong with me and they are doing great. Although I accept and adopt my philosophy of “I cannot control them” It still quite frustrating and hurtful that they are in denial and I end up being the culprit. I smile. I laugh. I cry. I encourage throughout all of the life lessons we experience every day. I err in judgement and live to try it again. I make a decision that I lose a payday over…but have another chance to regain my composure and do it again. To love once more. To embrace the differences. To live free of judgement.

The road to self-discovery is rough. The journey to enlightenment is sometimes lonely. Along the way you lose contacts and alienate yourself from the comfortable position of misery. Misery surely comes with a participating audience. We are prone to join through association. The choice is always ours the pressure of inclusion is so powerful we experiment and join. The experience in that mindset is very easy and fluid because everyone is a part of it and you do not feel uncomfortable. The discomfort comes when you are the different one smiling. You look like an oddball hugging and kissing everyone. Praising everything and anyone. You find beauty in everything and cannot hold back but to share with everyone…. “Crazy” is your nickname. You add to it by trying to be the example. Alienating yourself.

The frustration ends for me here. As I write and reflect. I part this article appreciative of the wonderful opportunity to give you my love and encouragement that we are here. I am here. Write me if you need assistance, support and counsel. Life doesn’t have to feel lonely among a giant group around you because you are happier. We can connect and join a community to remind yourself we are good. We are relevant for anyone. We love unconditional and forgive endlessly. This brings peace to our forsaken world.

What is Unconditional Love?

Unconditional love is known as affection without any limitations or love without conditions. This term is sometimes associated with other terms such as true altruism, or complete love.

I am writing to describe how we perceive unconditional love. When I ask people what they think unconditional love is they respond so negatively. People seem to think loving without boundaries is a bad thing. I think we let our ego take over and that is what causes pain. We are so quick to judge one another and the wall begins to keep us apart.

We are a loving species. We re-create one another through love, we heal through love, we love emotionally and deeply. We hurt and feel so much pain when we lose love. Love is such a huge word to discuss.

I want to detail my specific take on unconditional love. I want to share how Accepting ourselves Unconditionally is Love at its highest level. Accepting how and who we are is strength. Loving ourselves unconditionally is fearless love. We can grow from the point we accept ourselves in this way. Most of us look in the mirror and are not happy with what we see. We are so imperfect in our own eyes and yet we do not see how perfect of a creation we are. We are capable of creating anything we want to.

The most perfect creation is our mind. We are creative beings. The mind is capable of so much power…. The power to heal, the power to create, the power to feel. We have the power to have a voice and a choice for ourselves. We also have the unique ability to forgive. We have a choice to love our-self.

If we do anything in this life we have so short of time…. to love ourselves is the primary thing we need to focus on. The world is in a bad place because people are very unhappy. They are unhappy because they cannot accept themselves. It is a vicious cycle. Quit making excuses. Love yourself. It is very simple. Your life could end tomorrow. You are wasting time. There are so many people that want to try…. you get in their way because you infect them with your negativity. If you care about your loved ones wake up and love yourself so that you can be that example.

I Love You.