Understanding

Why Am I Unhappy?

Why Am I Unhappy? I am unhappy for the excuses I make to justify feeling unhappy. I wake up every morning thinking of all the things that went wrong yesterday and what is bound to happen today. I think of all the people that are in my way and irritate the crap out of me. I think of the person next to me that does not love me anymore. I am unhappy because I feel sorry for myself and the situation I wake up to every day.
There are so many more countless justifications that I remind myself to keep me to be unhappy everyday all day long. At some point it will drive me crazy …. That is what is called a nervous breakdown.

How did we get this way?

Conditioning from a very young age? Life experience, trauma and or tragedy. There are so many situations that we allow to be responsible for our present day life. We become lazy and blame the easiest available thing or person and loved one. Instead of taking stock and owning the decision we made to be unhappy. You can list a page full of excuses to be unhappy and I can sing the praises of the reasons to be happy.

This is a journey we are on.

We are travelers experiencing different chapters in this wonderful trip we are on. We are writing a story for ourselves. Believe it or not we are in full control of the content. We can either write the story fully in control or we can allow others to have control of our story letting them place us as actors in theirs.
It is really simple to write your own happiness story. That is the only story we should focus on. The SIMPLICITY of Happiness story. We are the authors. We write it and no one else should be responsible for the content except ourselves. We struggle because of fear. We are afraid to be brave and adventurous. Find the hard roads to take. The hard roads are our passions and loves. The things that give us purpose. The situations that bring us joy and happiness. We are afraid to try those things that are perceived as too far reaching.
I have wanted to be a public speaker since I was very young. At one point I wanted to be a priest or a pastor because I thought that was an honorable way of helping people and I can still be standing in front of the masses to encourage and empower. I did that and it was not fulfilling. I did not feel myself. I was more stressed out. I am now a mentor of happiness. I am a Happiness Coach. I am whatever you want to call someone that wants to teach people the SIMPLICITY of Happiness to anyone and everyone.

I have my dream.

I have the reality that I want to transfer from a dream reality to a physical reality. I want to stand in front of hundreds of people at once speaking to their hearts. I thought that this feat was only through a physical sense. How naive I am. I can reach millions by speaking on the internet through different social media platforms. I still offer myself face to face. I want to be available to everyone.
I thought my dream was unattainable. I was not happy because I thought I was not good enough. I convinced myself it was impossible. So I started to believe this for years. One day I realized I can convince myself to believe the opposite. I was a very late bloomer when it came to my artistic ability. I was called an artist for the first time in my life when I was 43 years old. It was amazing. I believed I was an artist. I acted as an artist. Then I was in a gallery and I was thought of as an artist from that day forward. I created my own reality.
You can create your own happiness the same way. Believe, and then just be. Eventually your physical world will catch up to your dreams. Happiness will consume you because you will believe that is what you feel every day. Try it. If you want to know my step by step easy to follow program subscribe to my blog and I will send you the program for free.

I just want to help you be happy.

Let go of the fear and stop letting your life deteriorate. No one person or thing is worth your life if they don’t value you the way you value them.

If someone proved beyond a shadow of a doubt that there is no God or that our life was not created intentionally…what would you do for those of you that believe? Would you live your life any different? Would you love less or love more?  Knowing that when you die there is nothingness. There is the absence of you. You will have been but a vapor once here and dissipated into nothing. Is that factual that we are nothing? Can someone explain this death theory and what happens to our energy that holds together the atoms we are composed of?

What would you do?

That question has been asked for many upon many years. Science has tried to change prove, disprove and approve the disapprove to prove…. It is a big circle. What is the real answer to the riddle of life? Is there proof that we exist beyond our lifeless bodies? Is there a theory that someone can actually prove scientifically that we are real and not just a story once we take our last breath?….

Let’s break it down. Why do religious groups have war? Do atheists and non-believers kill others in the name of nothingness? Do non-believers have the courage to end their lives to make a statement to the world knowing that their existence is over when they blow themselves up? What drives a man of peace and love to be a martyr for their religion? If they are a person of peace what does killing have to do with peace? Don’t give me that bullshit answer for the greater good! If religion is there to help and minister to people Gods love and protect why are children being molested?

If a man standing in front of a crowd really cares about his people why does he put them down for being poor because they cannot contribute their last dollar? Am I missing something here? If I do not show up I get criticized, if I show up wearing the wrong outfit I get scolded and chased out. If I show up I don’t feel loved. Why then would I join a family of hypocrites? Pornography gives me love. Alcohol and Drugs calm me down. Gangs give me encouragement and protection.

The only judge in my life is myself in a dark room by myself when I try and meditate on who and what I am. The dark voice inside my head. What is that voice? Do we have an inner voice that knows right from wrong? DO we hold a special gift we do not know about? Why do we have intuition? Where did that come from? Explain that one to me religion and science…. Why is it when experience the in-explainable and when we go to the “correct” people to explain they tell you to have faith and to not question the things of God. Is that who God is? What if there was no God and we have all these wonderful gifts, and abilities, and all these amazing things we are capable of experiencing… We know we are powerful beings….. I know….it is the aliens… They inbred with us therefore we hold special gifts. Is that God? The aliens?

If there is nothingness after this something we are experiencing then why do I see visions of tomorrow? Why do people clearly see “things” that are moving and yet have nothing about them you can touch? What is that and where does it come from? The devil? I thought the devil wasn’t real?

Is there God? Where is he? Why are we afraid of him? If there is a God and he is about love why is there a hell? Why is he mad? Why is he jealous if I am told to love like God who loves unconditionally? Why is there war in the name of_____.

Why do you pray? And what do you pray for If You are supposed to be created in Gods image…. Arent you powerful? Knowing you are created in the image of an all powerful universal creator should increase your faith by un-measurable amounts….and yet you sit there unhappy, discouraged and full of fear. What good is religion if it doesn’t bring you happiness.

If I believed in God. I would be happy all the time. Fear would be my bitch because I know who is my essence.

That is the SIMPLICITY of Happiness,

Is it easy? No.

I hope everyone reading this is finding a way to be happy in life. I sincerely hope with all my love and energy you are all in a place in your life where you know you have control over anything between the cranium in your head. That you have control over the thoughts and perceptions you constantly create. Everything you receive from all of your senses you have the control over how you feel about it.

I write in this blog to reach someone and or anyone that could learn from my words and outlook in life. I have my critics and people that think I am not qualified to give advice or write about happiness. I think that if someone loves themselves enough to help others is more than qualified. If your stated of mind is that of a crazy person and yet you have the love and compassion in your heart to help…then you are qualified. That is my opinion of course. I have my opinion and you have yours. Love is for everyone.

I love you and want to reach out to you. I love you and want you to be happy. That is the purpose of my existence. I want to love everyone the rest of my life. You should have the same purpose in life. You can apply that philosophy towards your passions in life. If you are an artist then you will pour all of your love into your art to express to the world. If you are a doctor then you will pour all of your love into healing people. AND so on…. You get the point. Love one another through your passions.

I love you even though you do not love me. I love you even though you see me as a threat or I annoy you. I love you unconditionally. I love you even though you hate me.

We are so capable of changing our perceptions and yet we hold on to the past, stress out about the future and look past the wonderful things and people we can experience right in front of us. Wake up. I Love you.

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