At the core of our life is our intent on finding a purpose and where do we fit in. Where do we fit in this world and our environment? We spend a lifetime searching for this very specific answer. Sadly there are others that just exist. To a majority of people that is just fine. That mindset to me is such an empty and lonely state of being. For those of us that think we are all here for a purpose and searching and seeking out this purpose it is a monumental undertaking if you are surrounded by idiots. Idiots is a harsh word. But let me re-phrase…..Sad People.
Honestly all kidding aside this world is full of people that are just existing. For many years since I was a child I thought my life was a happy life, an upbringing with loving and nurturing people. I thought that no one was out to hurt me. As I grew older that fantasy was met with reality when the memories started to trickle in. I would come across experiences as an older child, or triggers that would help me recall very negative and challenging experiences. The reason I did not realize they were bad during the experience is because as a child we are innocent and naïve and think our current experience is a norm. We do not have anything else as a base, our experience is limited. We have only new experiences with no judgement. As we mature through different stages we began to learn right from wrong. Then our past takes on a new life. We start to come across new experiences not so comfortable and then relate those new experiences with old, and it will trigger the past experience as it is happening in real time.
Experiences from childhood and forward shape our character. Our initial environmental experience will pre-determine our future decisions. WE will carry our fears predicated upon those past experiences. We will wonder why we have phobias, and resistance when we are challenged. We will create a life for ourselves based on those fears. We will create a safe place through our lives avoiding similar feeling experiences. Any emotion or feeling that is even remotely similar and attached to a current experience is a warning sign to us to stay away.
Life is full of challenges and we have to be strong in the face of all the adversity that we face in order to grow. If we are generally happy these adverse situations will be easier to face. If we listen to our voices telling us that the past negative experiences will be repeated if we embark on new experiences that have a risk associated to it, we will always find a safe place to reside and never move forward challenging ourselves to grow by overcoming.
Fear is not a reality. There is no justification for it. (False Evidence Appearing Real)The cure is not giving a fuck about your past and living life with faith that God will provide the safe haven and promise to you that you are a powerful being full of love. Love yourself and be fearless. Try anything and everything. THAT is how you will find your PURPOSE.
Be Good. I Love You.